Processing grief is personal and not something that can be prescribed.
I recently lost my mother very unexpectedly. She had a very rough winter. She had been in and out of hospital and rehab since January. She was scheduled to finally come home on July 16th. She passed on the 14th. It was a shock.
I process my grief very quietly and alone. I spent 10 days before the service remembering the good things and the challenging times. I knew I wanted to speak at the service. This in the past has been difficult emotionally. For a couple of days prior to the service I sorted out what i wanted to say and the morning of the service I actually wrote it done logically and in full sentences in case I became overwhelmed and
needed someone else to read it.
Where I process internally, my sister processes externally and has to talk. Its hard for me to talk about it all the time. I have somewhat moved on and am choosing to remember the good things now. Trying to not dwell on the challenges of the past year.
It’s been hard for me to sit and put this into words. I am doing ok. Moving forward one day at a time. There will be good days and bad days.
It’s been hard to tell people. In SL I have only told a VERY small amount of people. SL is my happy place, where I go to get away for some time daily.
Thank you for your understanding and caring, but please understand if I choose to not talk about it.